No, I didn't hurt myself this year. No dislocations or breaks or anything! Win.
I even only fell over once. I was going about 2mph and my ski got a bit stuck, and I overbalanced and basically sat down unexpectedly. I definitely took things easy this year. And it was still fun. A more relaxing kind of fun, but still fun.
I was still quite nervous at times though. Despite a fair amount of physio, and then some time in the gym geared towards strengthening my shoulder and the muscles around it, and starting climing again and being pretty confident of putting a lot of weight through that shoulder, I've still not given it a good 'jolt' yet. I'm not entirely sure what will happen when I do. So there's that.
It did lead me to wondering a bit more about the nature of pain.
First, is it just me, or did pain used to be a lot more emotionally disturbing as a kid/teenager?
I remember watching some movies when I was younger, seeing characters get hurt in various ways, and wondering how they could be so brave
as to not burst into tears. Lawrence of Arabia's "The trick [...] is not minding
that it hurts" was genuinely confusing. James Woods character in Bestseller putting a cigarette out in the palm of his hand was astonishing. Sometimes it broke my suspension of disbelief (even though I couldn't have articulated that at the time), but at other times I was aware that adults generally didn't cry when they got hurt. Still, I couldn't separate the idea of being in pain, and being really distressed and upset.
Nowadays, pain just isn't as emotionally disturbing. Other kinds of things that weren't particularly upsetting then, now are (thanks, Pixar!), but pain, not so much. Sure, pain is still painful
, and a sharp stub of the toe on a bedpost first thing in the morning can still bring a tear to my eye, but it doesn't set off the whole "cry" reflex including a wobbly mouth and buckets of snot.
Is that familiar? Do you think you've become 'braver' as you've grown up? Developed a different mental outlook on pain? Or do you think it's something more subconscious and innate than that?
Second, if you're asked to consider the idea of a 1-10 pain scale
, is your scale linear, or geometric? In other words, if you take the difference in pain between levels 2 and 3, and add that amount of pain to a 7, do you get an 8 (linear)? Or something only a tiny fraction over the original 7 (geometric)?